Wednesday, January 30, 2013

MSCMH

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Bukannya tak mahu jawab atau respond soalan awak. Cuma tak mahu ungkit balik benda yang dah lepas. Kerana mungkin akan menjadi kudis buat masa depan, siapa tahu. Yang penting soal hati dan perasaan ini Allah yang jaga. Dan saya cumaa rasa tak payah laaa. Cukuplah hanya Allah, saya dan beberapa orang lain yang ditakdirkan untuk ter-tahu.

Mungkin memang salah saya pasal tak reti nak jaga mulut sangat dulu. Tapi takpe. Asalkan sekarang tidak lagi insyaAllah.

Terasa menyesal kerana perbuatan dulu telah menimbulkan fitnah sekarang.

I just hope, I really really hope you understand me.

Forgive me if I ever annoy/hurt you in anyway. Just so you know that I treasure my friends a lot though it never shows. May Allah bless them all.

May Allah forgive me who has sinned a lot. Astaghfirullah al-azim.

And may Allah bless you. Always.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Monday, January 21, 2013

Dear awak #2

Assalamualaikum wbt everyone..

“Sedang gadis lain sibuk membicarakan soal ‘crush’, dia memilih untuk berdiam diri. Dia juga punya hati, punya perasaan. Tetapi dia memilih untuk mengejar cinta Dia dahulu :) Sekurangnya dia tahu bahawa Dia pasti membalas cintanya.” - unknown

Reaction aku,

'oh malunya ya Allah!'

To : you-know-who

Just wanting to let you know that I got your message. ngeee. and malu gilaaaa! Kita tau.. From my brother.. hihii. He just told me everything though I never asked. hahahahaa :3

Maybe pasal tuu la cam tak lupa walaupun dah lama tak jumpa.. kot... eghhhh, cheeky much!

Tapi insyaAllah boleh lupa kot lepas ni. insyaAllah. with Allah's will. now that it's easier to forget sebab dah lama tak bersua muka. insyaAllah! doakan ya! Cuma kene kurangkan bercakap pasal dia. Mention mention dalam blog lagilah macam.. erm.. *okay, silap sendiri ^^ take note!

Cinta terindah hanya bila kita cinta kat Allah, sebab Dia Tuhan. Dan walaupun kita hanya hamba Dia, Dia tetapkan izinkan kita menyintai Dia walaupun darjat kita ini hina dina saja. Oh Allah, hebatnya Engkau! Al-Malikul Quddus. Maha Raja yang Maha Suci!

Demi mencapai tahap kemanisan iman - GEMBIRA dalam melakukan ibadat, sanggup menanggung kepayahan untuk mendapatkan keredhaan Allah dan RasulNya, serta MENGUTAMAKAN keduaNya dari harta dunia,

Berkorban jiwa yang kecil ini apalah sangat untuk seorang hamba yang sangat hina dina ini. hee^^ insyaAllah Allah campakkan juga sedikit cinta nanti untuk orang yang lebih berhak.. kan..

Namun namun namun, lupa orang tu tak semestinya benci dan nyahkan terus. dia tetap sekali sekala muncul dalam lipatan ingatan nii.. hurhurhur.

Nanti dah dewasa akan teringat, "Oh, aku pun pernah ada crush dulu masa skola rendah. Skola menengah pun ada!" huahuahua

and it's nothing more. It's just that.

p/s: haaa, iloveyou. and ihopeyouunderstand me much. Inni uhibbuka fillah! i love you for d sake of Allah. and I serious do. May Allah bless you. Thanks for reminding. Thank you very much!

Aku pernah bagitau kakak aku,

"Kakak ada ramai best friends. Taktau mana satu best friend yang betul betul." lol

You are one of them :)

you-know-who, who don't like marshmallow. hekhek



Friday, January 18, 2013

Sweet dreams of mine.

Assalamualaikum.

I have dreams. A list of what I've wanted.

1) I would want a mini library in my future house. I like books. I love them! They are my besties that never leave. Always teach me about life. When I know not, they let me know. When I'm searching for something to fill the 'emptiness', they are the best 'something' I've known so far. And they taught me about love though I never did, had a boyfriend. hahaa :D

2) After I've had a degree and a proper job such as medical doctor or even a denstist, I would want to pursue my studies in astronomy. Learning about something that we love is the best pleasure, right? Hahaaa, though I'm a no good physics student. But still, I like stars! Soo everything else doesn't matters. *Learning about stars is enough, kalau susah sangat ann ngee x)

3) I want to make over my room. Put on beautiful romantic lights. And sleep. And be able wake up in the middle of night. Alone. performing tahajjud prayer. Be near to HIM. Forget about the world. The fashions, running man, guys, loves. ONLY HIM in mind. Thinking about the next world. Where we have nothing except His mercy and rahmah.

May I be able to achieve the sweet dreams above. Allahummaamin~

p/s : hey, I'm 18 this year. Sejak bila pulak aku dah lepas 17 nih !? Huaaa, masa remaja ku!




Monday, January 14, 2013

Kita

“Hidup ini menjadi sempit dan semakin sempit kerana kamu menjalani hidup ini untuk meraih perhatian dan redha manusia di sekeliling kamu. Apa yang kamu ingin lakukan, kamu ukur dengan reda manusia atau kebencian mereka. Ia membuatkan kamu menjalani sebuah kehidupan yang penuh dengan pendustaan”
(Syeikh Ibn Atoillah As-Sakandari)

Sepi Yang Indah

“Mungkin saja aku punya ramai teman Facebook,

dan mungkin saja aku punya ramai follower tumblr,

atau mungkin saja aku punya begitu banyak nama pena,

malah mungkin saja aku kerap kongsi fikir di alam maya.

Tapi realiti,
aku cuma punya beberapa sahabat setia,

dan disayangi kucing-kucing comel,

bersama keluarga sederhana yang bahagia,


dan ya,

aku masih menjadi aku yang biasa,

menjadi gadis yang tiada siapa akan perasan kehadirannya.


Kerana melalui rasa itu,
 pertemuanku menghadap Pencipta menjadi jauh lebih bermakna. Seriously.”

-penulisbuta

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Bila dah tamat sekolah.

I am fine. InsyaaAllah :)

Besok adik adik saya sudah mau kembali ke sekolah. Sekolah mereka. Juga sekolah saya.

You know what, I don't regret studying at that school for my last 2 years of school-ing. Because I met them.

Friends. Teachers. Juniors.

Friends. Everyone we've met in our life, if they really meant for us, mereka akan ajak kita untuk dekat bukan sekadar berilmu tetapi beramal. Mereka mengajar aku untuk dekat dan menghayati apa yang aku tahu tapi tidak dizahirkan. Mereka, I call them true friends. Though I know, lumrah alam fitrah kehidupan, that we'll be separating one day. They might be forgetting me or I might be forgetting them. Who knows?

But it doesn't matters, because what will stay anyway? Nothing in life will stay with us. I've learnt that during all these years. Nothing will stay, except the Almighty Allah.

'They might be forgetting me or I might be forgetting them.' Cuma cuma... Mungkin akan sedikit payah untuk aku lupa mereka kerana mereka.. yelah.. they are true friends indeed.

For the teachers. I never ever thought that I would even dream of missing them before. Like seriously. I was stressed sometimes because of them though it didn't last long. It is true what people say. Cikgu ialah ibu bapa kita dekat sekolah.

Walaupun takde blood related, they have been taking care of us like we are their child. Cuma kurang sikit. Yelah, anak sendiri lagi sayang laa of course. But still, siapa lagi nak jaga, layan, bermanja, mengusik, bergurau, meleleh air mata dengan kita lepas ni? takde dah derrr. Hoho.

whatever it is, the teachers walau segarang mana pun se-annoying mana pun will be in my memories. insyaAllah :)

Juniors. okay, aku tak rapat sangat dengan juniors. Tapi dorang still respect so alhamdulillah. Cuma semenjak masuk badan pengawas je cam boleh laa dengan juniors ni.. sikit.. Ada yang budak baik, ada yang nakal-nakal sikit. They are nice if we really get into them. Hey I should be nicer to everyone I meet after this! Enough said.

SMK PUTRAJAYA PRESINT 8 (1) , I owe you BIG TIME! But I would have appreciate you more if you upgrade your canteen service . ngeeeeee :P

Hugs and kisses to school mates and the teachers for that without them I am not who I am today. Thank you so much ya Allah, alhamdulillah.